Here's the last part of the fic! My friend will be posting a sequel when he finds the time to write one down. Anyway, enjoy!
Change Of Heart
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the characters in Ouran High School Host Club.
Author’s Notes: Well, this is the last part of the fic. Thanks to everyone who reviewed! You really made my day! And I really hope you enjoyed the story as much as I enjoyed writing it!
Change Of Heart
'Cuz if I follow my heart
After club activities, Kaoru found himself walking towards the maze, alone. Hikaru had already gone out to take Haruhi home while Tamaki went with them to ensure that Hikaru wouldn’t molest ‘his daughter’. Kyouya and the others were probably going to go home soon so Kaoru decided to slip out of the club room before any of them and take a walk outside. He wasn’t aware of Honey, Kyouya and Mori watching him from the clubroom window.
“Was it necessary?” Mori asked Honey.
“I couldn’t help it,” Honey bit his lip, holding his bunny close for comfort. “Every time I see him, he smiles as if nothing is wrong. He’s hurting inside but I don’t think Hika–chan notices. And the fact that Hika–chan doesn’t notice hurts Kao–chan even more because they’re brothers, twins. For your own brother to not notice your pain…. Ne, Kyou–chan, will you fulfill Kao–chan’s request?”
“I have to think about it,” Kyouya answered.
“Maybe you should,” Honey suggested.
“Mitsukuni,” Mori started.
“Because I think Kao–chan needs it,” Honey continued.
Kyouya pushed his glasses up, writing something in his notebook before closing it.
“He’s running away that way,” Kyouya said.
“But I think he needs it,” Honey said. “Because I think the truth is, Kao–chan isn’t hurting because he forgot to step forward.”
From his statement, it was clear that he heard the conversation between Kaoru and Kyouya.
“He’s not hurting from that,” Honey continued. “Because if he were, he should be able to correct that mistake now that he knows that he also forgot to move forward. He should have been able to start looking at things differently and be happy as he changes. But he’s still in pain. So I think he’s hurting not because he forgot to step forward, rather, because he didn’t want to.”
Will you still be my friend,
Kaoru just watched the sky grow darker. Honestly, he didn’t want to go home yet. Going home would mean facing Hikaru. At the moment, he wasn’t sure he could face his brother without breaking down. It was almost time. Just a few more days and then….
“Do you have plans of staying in here overnight?” a voice asked.
“Ah, Kyouya–senpai,” Kaoru smiled. “I thought you went home already. Where’s Honey–senpai and Mori–senpai?”
“Home,” was all Kyouya said. “You should be going, too, Kaoru.”
“Mm,” Kaoru looked at the sky. Stars were starting to become more visible. “I’ll be on my way soon.”
Kyouya didn’t say anything. However, he didn’t leave. Instead, he stayed behind Kaoru, watching the stars like the younger teen.
“How did you know?” Kaoru suddenly asked, breaking the silence.
Kyouya raised an eyebrow as the boy looked at him. Kaoru smiled at this.
“How did you know that I wasn’t Hikaru?”
“I don’t think Hikaru is the poetic type,” was Kyouya’s simple answer.
“Do you have to be to appreciate the stars?” Kaoru asked.
“Even if he were, he’s not the type to appreciate them anyway,” Kyouya said.
“Aa,” Kaoru gave a small smile. “So that’s all there is to it. You can tell it’s not Hikaru since I’m more sentimental?”
“No,” Kyouya pushed his glasses up. “You and Hikaru have always done things together. But… even you have your differences. Your voice, for one. And Hikaru is, as Haruhi once said, a level meaner than you are. You’re much calmer, too.”
“Hmm,” Kaoru looked at Kyouya before looking back at the stars.
“You’re really going through with it?” came Kyouya’s question.
“Yes,” Kaoru answered. “I’ve finished everything I needed to do. Now, I just have to wait.”
“Is it really THAT important?”
“It is to me,” Kaoru said softly, looking at his hands. “If Hikaru finds his way, what will happen to me? So I need to find myself. We’ve always been together. No one has ever told us apart before Haruhi. So… now that things are becoming different, I don’t know what to do. Who am I really? After all, it’s always been the two of us. What Hikaru did, I also followed. But now, I cannot be like him.”
Kyouya didn’t say anything. But, after a few minutes, he started to walk away.
“Let’s go,” Kyouya said. “I’ll drop you off.”
Kaoru gave one last look at the sky before joining Kyouya.
It was only when they arrived at Kaoru’s home that Kyouya finally said something.
“You underestimated us, Kaoru,” Kyouya said, his eyes hidden by the light reflected on his glasses. “Did you think that after being friends for so long, we wouldn’t be able to tell you and Hikaru apart?[1] We just never said anything. You said you don’t know what to do since you’ve always been so similar. And perhaps it is true. After all, both of you speak simultaneously and do things together. Both of you think of ideas at the same time and execute your acts perfectly not because all of them were rehearsed but because you both knew what the other was thinking that even an impromptu act would just be nothing to you. But did you ever realize, Kaoru, that it is when both of you are together that you are most distinguishable?[2]”
If we break apart?
The evening of the twins’ birthday, Kaoru found himself smiling less. It was almost as though he regretted his plans but then, there was nothing more that he can do. He already troubled a lot of people. How could he just back out at the last minute?
“Oi! Kaoru!” Hikaru laughed as he walked towards his brother. “Want to try putting pepper in Tono’s punch?”
Kaoru smiled.
“Nah,” he said. “I think I’ll enjoy the peace for a while.”
“Heheh….” Hikaru grinned. “As long as everyone in the club is in the same room, it’ll never be peace and quiet. All right, I’ll be going then. I’m going to ask Haruhi to dance.”
“Aa,” Kaoru forced a smile.
As Kaoru watched his brother walk away, Honey tugged at the teen’s jacket.
“Honey–senpai?” Kaoru looked at Honey.
“Kao–chan!” Honey smiled widely, holding up a big present. “Happy birthday!”
“Aa,” Kaoru smiled, this time, for real. He gently took the present from the senior. “Thank you, Honey–senpai.”
“That’s for you!” Honey smiled. Even at the party, he had his bunny with him. “I gave Hikaru his but then, he went away since he had something to do so Takashi went and placed the gift on the table along with the others.”
“Eh?” Kaoru looked at the table piled with presents. “Honey–senpai… you needn’t buy two. Hikaru and I can share.”
“But Hikaru listens to music more than you do,” Honey reasoned out. “And besides, you like books more than music.”
Kaoru had to smile at the senior’s thoughtfulness.
“Arigatou, Honey–senpai,” Kaoru said.
Honey looked at Kaoru thoughtfully as though analyzing the teen. Then, Honey smiled.
“Kao–chan, where’s your birthday cake? Can I see?” Honey dragged Kaoru to the buffet table. “What flavor are you having anyway? Is it a three – layer cake?”
Kaoru laughed, thankful for the distraction. Leave it to Honey to think of cake even when it wasn’t his birthday.
“We can eat cake, right?” Honey asked, looking at Kaoru expectantly.
“Well, we have to ask Hikaru first,” Kaoru laughed. “I think he’ll want to blow the candles first.”
“Then let’s go!” Honey exclaimed happily. He quickly pulled Kaoru along as they went to find Hikaru.
On the way, Kaoru turned and saw the clock on the wall. He suddenly froze.
“Kao–chan?” Honey looked back at the teen, questioningly.
Kaoru slowly turned to look at Honey.
“Gomen ne, Honey–senpai,” Kaoru said softly. “It’s time.”
How will I make, how will you take
Kaoru didn’t say anything as he looked out the car. He watched as they passed by places familiar to him. Places he visited with his twin.
All the malls, all the restaurants, and perhaps even the school…. All of these comprised the place he called “home.” But not anymore.
Kaoru got his phone from his bag. He held it for a while, pondering on his next move.
Finally, after a few minutes, Kaoru came to a decision.
Hikaru smiled at Haruhi just as the song ended. He spent almost the whole night dancing with her, which resulted to Tamaki wailing in another room.
“I have to go now,” Hikaru said, smiling apologetically at Haruhi. “I still have to wrap my gift for Kaoru.”
“Ne, Hikaru,” Haruhi started as they walked away from the dance floor, “is something going on with you and Kaoru? He seems different these days.”
Hikaru stopped walking and stared at her.
“What do you mean?” Hikaru asked.
Haruhi stopped walking and turned to face Hikaru.
“Well, I thought maybe you guys had a fight or something,” Haruhi said.
“Why do you say that?” Hikaru asked again.
Haruhi looked at Hikaru thoughtfully. After a while, she spoke.
“Hikaru,” Haruhi said, slowly, “you haven’t been spending time with Kaoru much these days, have you?”
When Hikaru didn’t say anything, Haruhi frowned a bit.
“Didn’t you notice?” Haruhi asked. “I thought you knew the reason as to why Kaoru has been so sad these days.”
Hikaru’s eyes widened.
If everyone knew and he didn’t, then what kind of a brother was he?
Without a word, Hikaru strode off to find his twin brother.
My change of heart?
Hikaru growled as he found their room empty.
Where the hell was Kaoru?!
“Damn it!”
Hikaru was about to go to another room when he noticed something different. He entered their room and looked around.
Something was off.
Hikaru frowned and randomly opened their cabinets. That was when he noticed the single set of clothes. He looked down and found only one set of shoes. Everything was his. What happened to Kaoru’s things?
Wait….
‘No, don’t tell me….’
Hikaru quickly checked the other cabinets. He found some luggage missing.
‘That… that baka!’ Hikaru quickly got his phone and dialed Kaoru’s number.
“Hello?” came Kaoru’s gentle voice from the other line.
“Kaoru?!” Hikaru grasped the phone tightly. “Kaoru, where are you?”
Silence was all that Hikaru could get.
“KAORU!” Hikaru was now starting to get frustrated. “Answer me, Kaoru! Where are you?! You’re…. This is a joke, right? You’re not really….”
A moment of silence and then,
“Gomen, Hikaru.”
And the line went dead.
Hikaru stared at his phone before redialing Kaoru’s number. But despite the number of times he tried to call, Kaoru never picked them up.
Kaoru hugged the stuffed bunny closer as he clenched his fists and closed his eyes tightly. Tears fell from his eyes as he ignored the continuous ringing beside him.
“Kaoru–sama,” the chauffer said, hesitantly.
“It’s okay,” Kaoru said. “I’m fine.”
…. Kaoru looked at the stuffed toy Honey presented to him.
“Honey–senpai?” Kaoru asked hesitantly. “Why–?”
“So that you can have company!” Honey smiled as he handed his precious toy to Kaoru.
“But….” Kaoru tried to protest.
“It’s okay,” Honey smiled. “Usa–chan can keep you company! That way, you won’t be sad anymore! Then, someday, you have to give Usa–chan back! But, Kao–chan, you have to come bring me Usa–chan personally because Usa–chan’s scared of being alone. And she doesn’t like staying in the cargo, too! You have to ride with her on the plane and feed her and let her drink tea!”
“Ano….” Kaoru smiled sheepishly.
“Kao–chan,” Honey suddenly became more serious, “have you ever thought that perhaps Hikaru needs you as much as you need him?”
It was a thought that never occurred to him, Kaoru realized, because even though he thought of Hikaru as his most important person, to Hikaru, Haruhi was probably the most important person at this time….
Kaoru’s hands shook as he tried to type in a message on his phone.
‘Gomen ne, Hikaru,’ Kaoru thought sadly. ‘Gomen.’
How will you take
“What do you mean I can’t go?!” Hikaru growled at Kyouya. “I’m going to find him and bring him back!”
“You can’t,” Kyouya said simply.
“Kyouya–senpai,” Haruhi said, coming to Hikaru’s aid, “if you knew that Kaoru was leaving, why didn’t you say anything? Shouldn’t we go after him?”
Kyouya didn’t answer.
Hikaru growled and turned away, leaving the mansion and calling for a driver. He didn’t care to know the reason why Kyouya was keeping him from going after his brother but there was no way he’d allow Kaoru to go! Not without him.
“Kyouya–senpai,” Haruhi looked at Hikaru’s retreating form. “Why–?”
“Kao–chan wanted to go,” Honey answered for Kyouya.
Honey and Mori walked towards the two. Tamaki soon joined them.
“But,” Haruhi looked outside before turning back to the group. “Isn’t it bad to just leave things as they are?”
“Kaoru probably needs it,” Tamaki said, now serious.
“Tamaki–senpai,” Haruhi looked at the blonde.
“Kaoru’s probably trying to find himself,” Tamaki explained. “So he needs to go away for a while.”
“I can understand that,” Haruhi said, “but is it so personal that he couldn’t do it with Hikaru around?”
“It’s because Hika–chan is around that Kao–chan can’t grow,” Honey said. Mori nodded in agreement.
“Unlike you, Haruhi,” Kyouya started, “Kaoru does have his own desires. Unfortunately, he is so used to thinking about Hikaru that he is willing to forego his wishes if it could just make Hikaru happy. You could say that Kaoru probably forgot how to live for himself and not for others.”
Haruhi tilted her head a bit as she studied Kyouya.
“That really doesn’t sound like you talking, senpai,” she said.
Kyouya raised an eyebrow.
Haruhi smiled.
“You don’t usually express your concern for others quite openly.”
Kyouya looked down a bit, pushing his glasses up. He thought about that afternoon in the music room.
…. Kaoru was smiling then.
“I’ve told you everything. So now, I’d like to request something from you….”
“That is?” Kyouya waited for the teen’s answer.
“To keep my location a secret,” Kaoru smiled. “I know you can probably track me down if you try. So please, please don’t tell anyone. Please let me do this on my own. Make sure no one comes after me.”
“Is that all?” Kyouya asked, scribbling on his notebook.
“Hmm…. Please give Hikaru a message when I’m gone.”
“You could give it to him yourself.”
“But then,” Kaoru smiled, sadly, “I won’t be able to leave. He won’t let me.”
“Shouldn’t that already mean something?” Kyouya asked.
“Not really,” Kaoru said. “He could just be scared of the thought of being alone. But he isn’t. He has Haruhi… and he has all of you.”
“Then what about you?”
Kaoru looked at Kyouya.
“Me? Well, I guess I’ll have a new beginning then.”
“That’s not what I meant,” Kyouya said, looking away and watching Hikaru laugh at Tamaki.
“Then what do you mean?”
“Hikaru does have all of us. But it’s you that he wants more than anyone else.”
“Can’t be,” Kaoru said, now looking at his brother. “Because he rarely sees me now.”
That was when Kaoru pitched forward as Honey landed on his back….
Kyouya slowly took an envelope from his notebook.
“What’s that?” Tamaki asked.
“Something for Hikaru,” Kyouya said simply. He walked to the pile of gifts on the table and, seeing Kaoru’s gift for Hikaru, tucked the letter in between the ribbons to hold it in place.
“But are you sure we can just leave this as is?” Haruhi insisted, looking at Kyouya and then at Tamaki.
“Well,” Tamaki started, “let’s just give them time.”
“But what if it’s too late?” Haruhi asked.
“We should just leave them be,” Kyouya said coldly, walking away.
“Kyouya!” Tamaki exclaimed. “That’s rude, walking away like that!”
“We’ve always interfered with their problems,” Kyouya said, not turning to face them. “Maybe it’s time they learned to sort things out themselves.”
“But what if they don’t?” Haruhi insisted.
“Haru–chan,” Honey piped up, “I think it’ll be fine. Maybe after sometime, Kaoru will realize what is missing and Hikaru will realize what is important.”
“Besides,” Tamaki added. “If worse comes to worst, we’re here aren’t we? We can help them out. But give them time. This time, let’s hope they can see for themselves what is really there instead of what they think is there.”
My change of heart?
Kaoru looked out the plane window, sadly.
This was it. This was the last time he was going to see this place.
“Hikaru….” Kaoru murmured.
Suddenly, Kaoru saw something that made his eyes widen.
“Hikaru?” Kaoru placed his hands on the window as he moved closer.
Hikaru was in the airport. He was banging against the glass windows as he yelled for Kaoru.
Tears fell from Kaoru’s eyes as he watched his brother fight off the guards who tried to pull him away from the window.
“DON’T DO THIS TO ME, KAORU!!!” Hikaru yelled, banging at the glass. “GET DOWN FROM THAT PLANE!!! KAORU!!!”
Hikaru struggled from the guards’ hold and quickly ran outside to where the plane was.
“Oi! THAT’S DANGEROUS!!!” came many of the guards’ warnings.
Hikaru ignored them all. He quickly ran as the plane moved away.
“NO!!!” Hikaru yelled, watching as Kaoru slowly turned away. “KAORU!!!”
“Gomen ne,” Kaoru whispered, tears starting to fall from his eyes as he turned away from the window reluctantly.
A handkerchief was presented to him.
Kaoru looked up with teary eyes and saw an old woman, smiling at him.
“He must really love you to come after you even though it’s dangerous,” the woman commented. “Are you sure you want to leave things as is?”
Kaoru’s eyes tears up even more and he accepted the offer of the handkerchief.
“I can’t,” Kaoru sobbed. “I hate this!”
“Then why are you doing this?” the woman asked. “Surely it’s hurting both of you.”
“I hate this,” Kaoru sobbed. “But I need this. I need to get away.”
“Your brother loves you, you know.”
“…. But he doesn’t need me….”
“…. Then why did he come?”
“NO!!!” Hikaru sank to his knees, punching the ground hard. “KAORU!!!”
“Hikaru–sama,” his driver came after the boy. “We have to go. It’s dangerous here.”
“Why?” Hikaru growled. “Why would he do this? Why would he leave me? Kaoru…. WHY?!?!?!”
His phone lit up continuously but Hikaru ignored it. It was the driver who picked up his master’s phone. That was when the driver saw the message from Kaoru.
Sayonara.
“He’s been like that since he arrived,” Haruhi said.
She and the other host club members were watching the older twin as he sat on the bed, staring out the window without a word. Kaoru’s unopened gift to him lay on the bed in front of him, the letter Kyouya inserted being the only one actually touched.
“Will he be okay?” Haruhi asked the others.
“I don’t know,” Tamaki said, looking hesitant now.
Perhaps they really did make a mistake in letting the twins be.
“Maybe we should have shown Kao–chan the gift Hikaru had for him,” Honey remarked.
“The gift???” Haruhi and the others looked at Honey.
Honey looked at Mori, who produced the unwrapped gift.
It was a big book.
When they opened it, they found a collection of stories, probably Kaoru’s favourites. There were also pictures of the twins as they were growing up and some pictures of the Host club.
It was quite a thick book and everyone could see how much effort Hikaru gave to produce the perfect gift. It was too bad that Kaoru didn’t wait for the time to open gifts before leaving. Maybe… just maybe, he would have stayed. Because on the back cover, on the inside, was a message engraved in gold.
To my twin brother, Kaoru:
You’re the best and most important person in my life! I wouldn’t trade you for the world!
Love, your partner–in–crime, Hikaru.
Dear Hikaru,
By the time you read this letter, I’ll probably be gone now. I’m sorry. I didn’t want to do this. But I didn’t know what to do. You seemed so far away already. It was always Haruhi now. Sometimes, I wonder if you even remember that I’m still here.
I miss you, Hikaru. I miss the times when we’d go home together. I miss the times when we’d eat breakfast and leave for school together. I miss the times when we’d make fun of Tono and I miss the times when we would just play around. I miss them all simple because I really miss you.
Our world isn’t there anymore, Hikaru. You’ve found another and I’m left behind. Now, I have to find my own way. I can’t do this anymore, Hikaru. You’ve already forgotten. So please, let me go now. Please give me the chance to let you go.[3]
I love you, brother. And I’ll miss you.
Kaoru
THE END
Author’s Notes:
[1] Oh yes, in case you’re wondering, some of the parts are changed a bit. I don’t really know if the other people in the Host club can tell the twins apart, excluding Haruhi. But I guess that’s the part I find strange in the anime. I’ve had lots of friends (twins) and I never had trouble telling them apart even though some of them do enjoy trying to fool people. But to others, they really look the same so I think once you get to know them, they seem different. So I guess that’s what I want to bring out in the fic. Since Tamaki and the others did know the twins a lot longer, I thought maybe they should be able to tell them apart. But then, that’s just me.
[2] I also asked someone I know who has twins and he told me that it was easiest to tell them apart when they’re together. He said that it’s when they are together that you can see the difference.
[3] I got this last line from the movie "Lake House". This may not be the exact line. I'm not quite sure since I can't remember things quite as well as most people. Anyway, I couldn't forget the idea behind those lines so yah... those lines were from that movie.
What my friend planned to be a story of two parts ended up becoming one with three parts. Anyway, here is the next installation. My friend would like to thank all those who reviewed. It helped a lot. Anyway, enjoy!
Change Of Heart
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the characters in Ouran High School Host Club. Nor do I own the song entitled “Change of Heart” since this one’s by Jim Brickman. Another song in this fic is entitled “I’m Still Here” and it was one of the songs in the “Treasure Planet” movie.
Author’s Notes: Thanks to everyone who reviewed the fic! I hope you enjoy the next part. I have to admit though, it’s been a while since I’ve watched Ouran so I may have lost my grasp on their personalities. Um… I hope it isn’t too far off though.
Also, I’m aware of how different I’ve made the twins’ parents become. I actually read the manga only after starting the fic so basically, the fic was more anime–based than it is both (anime and manga). And since in the anime, the parents weren’t shown, I didn’t really know how they were and decided to make my own version.
Change Of Heart
Moving on is gonna take some time
When I'm gone, you might have
A change of mind
When Kaoru was done talking with his mother, he decided to retire to his room. His room. Not Hikaru’s. Maybe for tonight, just for tonight, he’d stay in his room alone. His mother had asked him a couple of times if he were sure and if he felt all right. He wasn’t – he wasn’t all right and no, he definitely wasn’t sure of his decision. But he needed this. He needed this for himself. Maybe a part of him wants to prove to himself that things had to change. Maybe that part wants to prove that he no longer needed Hikaru just as the older twin no longer needed him. If he could get through this night alone and still be able to sleep well… then it could become a habit so that he no longer needs to go to Hikaru’s room.
But then… why does a part of him wish that Hikaru would come and demand him to return to his place beside Hikaru?
Kaoru buried his face in his pillow and, though he didn’t want to, cried himself to sleep.
Kaoru woke up the next day feeling a heavy weight on his back as he was sleeping on his stomach. He moaned quietly and rolled to the side. When he finally woke up enough to focus, his eyes fell on the other figure beside him.
Hikaru.
What was he doing there?
Kaoru could only stare at his brother’s sleeping form, shock keeping him from saying or doing anything.
‘Why is he here?’ came Kaoru’s thoughts. ‘Shouldn’t he be in his room? Could it be… could it be that he really does notice me? Could he really have missed me?’
“Hmmm… Haruhi…. Tono no baka….” Hikaru murmured in his sleep. “…. Love hmmm….”
Kaoru felt his heart stop as he heard his brother’s words. Hikaru might be dreaming but then… didn’t they say that dreams were reflections of your true desires?
Kaoru turned away, closing his eyes tightly.
‘I won’t cry. I won’t cry,’ came the litany. ‘After all, it’s time to let go. I won’t cry. I… I won’t….’
But even such conviction cannot stop the tears from falling.
Gotta take the chance,
No matter what I find.
When Kaoru woke up again, he found himself alone in his room. He just stood up and prepared to take a bath before going down for breakfast.
While he was taking a bath, he stared at the tiles. He could see an outline of his reflection cast on the walls. He stared at his own reflection before he finally came to a decision.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered, his hand moving to touch the wall. “And goodbye.”
It wasn’t clear then, if he were saying those words to Hikaru or he meant them for himself.
When Kaoru went down for breakfast, he found his mother already at the table, sketching designs while eating.
“Good morning, mom,” Kaoru greeted. “Where’s Hikaru?”
“He said he needed to get something,” Mrs. Hitachiin answered. She looked at Kaoru and smiled. “Probably something for your birthday.”
“Heheh,” Kaoru sat down, grabbing a croissant. “Then I have to get going, too. Otherwise, he’d complain if I didn’t get him anything while he actually woke up early to get me something.”
“You sit down and eat your breakfast properly, young man, before you decide to go out,” Mrs. Hitachiin said, sternly, pointing at Kaoru with her pen and gesturing at the chair.
Kaoru grinned.
“Yep, mom, love you, too,” Kaoru kissed his mother on the cheek and quickly ran out of the dining room. “Hehehe! See you later, mom!”
“Don’t be out long, Kaoru!” his mother called after him. “We still have to plan for your birthday together with your brother!”
“We have time, mom,” Kaoru smiled, sticking his head inside the dining room to look at his mom. “Our birthday’s not till next week.”
After that, Kaoru ran out the door and smiled sadly even as sunlight greeted him.
‘Yes. Everything will be over soon.’
No matter how far I travel
A few days have passed. Everything seemed normal since everyone was following the same routine. That is, except for Kaoru. Lately, he had been going out a lot and would not say anything to his brother about it. Hikaru, on the other hand, didn’t notice. If he did, it didn’t bother him so much that he would ask Kaoru about it. He only assumed that Kaoru had a lot to prepare for. After all, their birthday was coming soon. Perhaps Kaoru was buying gifts or something. At least, that was what Hikaru thought.
One afternoon, Kaoru found himself running late as the Host Club was already open and he didn’t even get into his costume yet. He was in the principal’s office, settling some things and he hadn’t expected it to take longer than an hour, but then, an emergency delayed the meeting and resulted to the meeting ending late. He could only hope that Kyouya’s in a good mood. Or that Hikaru’s managing on his own. Otherwise, the shadow king would probably kill him.
When Kaoru reached the Third Music Room, he didn’t see the sign above and just entered the room, hoping to sneak in before Kyouya could actually notice exactly how late he was. However, as he entered the room, the first sight that greeted him was that of his brother kissing Haruhi. Never mind Tamaki wailing. Never mind Mori covering Honey’s eyes or Kyouya scribbling on his clipboard. All Kaoru could see was Hikaru. His brother.
His brother was kissing Haruhi.
At that moment, Kaoru felt something die inside of him.
The fairytale was over.
I think of you as home
It was only less than a minute but it seemed like forever to Kaoru. The next moment, however, found Tamaki sulking in a corner as Haruhi scolded him while Hikaru was smirking and teasing Tamaki. Kaoru just shook his head as he headed towards the dressing room but Kyouya stopped him just before he actually reached the door of the dressing room.
“Where are you going?” came the shadow king’s question.
“Isn’t it obvious?” Kaoru looked at Kyouya in confusion. “Dressing room. You know, to change?”
Kyouya raised an eyebrow.
However, before any of them could say anything, Honey came over, pouncing on Kaoru.
“The club’s closed for today, Kao–chan!” Honey exclaimed. “Tama–chan declared a break so today, we can enjoy cake!”
Kaoru had to smile at the childlike senior.
“Ne, Kao–chan, would you like to eat cake with me?” Honey continued. “I have chocolate, strawberry, mango…. Takashi also bought me kiwi–flavored cake. He said that it was an experimental flavor. Want to test it with me, Kao–chan?”
“Ah, maybe next time, Honey–senpai,” Kaoru smiled sheepishly. ‘I’m not exactly fond of experimenting on myself when it comes to food but he doesn’t need to know that.’
“Hmm?” Honey looked at Kaoru for a moment before he smiled and jumped off.
“Okay, next time then!” Honey said, happily. He ran towards Mori.
“Takashi!!!” Honey had a big smile on his face. “Cake!!! Let’s eat cake!!!”
Kaoru just smiled and turned back to look at his twin brother.
“Do you regret it?”
“Huh?” Kaoru snapped out of his thoughts and turned to look at Kyouya who was, at the moment, scribbling something on his clipboard. “Regret what?”
“Bringing them closer,” came the simple answer.
Kaoru’s eyes widened. Was he THAT obvious?
“No, you’re not that obvious,” Kyouya said as he stopped writing. “At least, not to some people.”
Kaoru smiled wryly.
‘Yup. Undisputedly the shadow king. Complete with mindreading skills. Now I know how scared I am of him.’
“Well?”
“Um….” Kaoru turned to look at his brother again. He watched Hikaru laugh at something Tamaki had said, the comment causing Haruhi to get even angrier at the blonde person.
Did he regret changing things, which resulted to his brother being happier?
‘How could I regret seeing him happy?’ Kaoru wondered.
“No,” Kaoru said softly. “Even if bringing them closer wasn’t really my objective, I don’t regret it being like this. Besides,” he continued, now in a softer voice, “how can I regret it when I was the one who made those three mistakes?”
Kyouya pushed his glasses up before speaking up.
“You’re contradicting yourself. After all, isn’t regret usually caused by mistakes?”
A shrug.
“Tamaki–senpai did say we were a contradiction. So I don’t see why I should disagree now. But if you must insist, then let me rephrase it. Do I have the right to regret when it was my choice that resulted to this?”
“I didn’t know that you needed rights to actually feel something,” Kyouya remarked, sounding a little amused. However, he became a little more serious. “You said you made three mistakes.”
“Yes,” Kaoru admitted. “But it’s none of your business to know.”
“It is my business considering that this affects your performance.”
Kaoru studied Kyouya’s face for a while. After some time, Kaoru smiled.
“If I tell you, will you do something for me?”
“Depends on the request.”
“I’m not asking much.”
A moment of silence. Then,
“We’ll see.”
It’s not about finding someone else,
“At that time, all I was trying to do was try to help Hikaru grow up. I was trying to get him to learn how to respect people and be more sensitive to their feelings. At that time, and perhaps even till now, Haruhi was the only one who could be the test person. After all, it will be pointless to push Hikaru into learning how to respect someone if the person he is supposed to practice on cannot tell us apart. In order for him to grow, he needs someone who could see him as himself and not as one of the twins. That was why it had to be Haruhi. That time, you asked me if I ever considered the possibilities of love actually developing from the date plan,” Kaoru started, smiling wistfully. “That was then that I realized my mistake. My first mistake was that I was so busy trying to help Hikaru grow up that I didn’t realize that it also meant letting him go. He’s my brother. We’ve been together, just the two of us for so long and I’m not sure I want to let go of him right away. So, in order to convince myself that I didn’t make a mistake, I told you then that it was still too early. Too early for Hikaru to just fall in love like that.
“And I guess….” Kaoru smiled sadly, “… and I guess that was where I made my second mistake. I don’t think I was wrong when I said that it was still too early for love to happen. After all, I’m not sure that it can be called love if you immediately fall for a person after a first glance or a first date or something because there’s not enough time to know the person. But then, that was my second mistake. Because I never realized that, Hikaru didn’t fall in love with Haruhi because of that date. He had slowly been falling for her since she since the day she entered the club and became our friend.”
Silence followed when Kaoru didn’t continue.
Then, Kyouya looked at the younger teen.
“You said there were three,” he reminded.
“Aa,” Kaoru smiled as he leaned back against the wall, looking up before looking at his brother again. “My mother pointed this one out to me. And she was right.”
Kaoru smiled at Kyouya.
“I guess,” he continued, “my mother was right. She said I had been so focused on helping Hikaru. It may have been true. She said that I may have been too focused on helping Hikaru that I forgot to step forward myself when I pushed my brother forward.”
Kaoru laughed, though Kyouya could detect the sadness in the teen’s voice.
“But I guess it wasn’t only that,” Kaoru continued, “because I think it has something to do with the fact that I was so used to always being together with Hikaru, I probably thought I’d move forward when he does. Subconsciously, that was probably what I kept thinking. Hehe…. I guess that was pretty stupid.”
Kaoru then looked at Kyouya.
“I’ve told you everything,” Kaoru smiled gently. “So now, I’d like to request something from you….”
It’s all about being alone
Kaoru suddenly pitched forward when a heavy weight landed on his back. He managed to regain his balance and when he turned, he saw Honey’s smiling face. Kaoru would have been alarmed, thinking that the senior could have heard the conversation he had with Kyouya. However, the feeling didn’t last long. After all, if Honey was smiling, then it means that he didn’t hear anything, right?
“Ne, Kao–chan! Let’s play!” Honey said. “I asked Hika–chan and Tama–chan and they said we can play Kankeri so Haru–chan can enjoy that game again. So let’s play, okay, Kao–chan? You like games, too, right? Then let’s play! We can go eat dinner afterwards and have cake for dessert!”
“Um.…” Kaoru murmured.
“You don’t like to play with me?” Honey looked at Kaoru with teary eyes.
“Of course I like playing with you!” Kaoru forced a smile. He bent down so Honey can get down on the floor. He stayed down, half – kneeling as he looked at Honey.
“Now, shall we go out?” he asked.
Honey nodded excitedly, holding his bunny close. Kaoru stood up and as they were about to walk out, Honey said something.
“I hope Kyou–chan becomes the ‘it’ again,” Honey stated, “right, Takashi?”
“Aa,” came the taller person’s reply.
“Kyouya?” Kaoru looked at Honey in confusion.
“Oh good,” Hikaru commented nonchalantly. “At least, if anyone of us gets lost, we’re sure to be found.”
“WHAT?!” Tamaki exclaimed.
“But Tamaki–senpai, you really did get us lost before,” Haruhi said.
Tamaki was then found crying in one corner of the room.
“All right,” Kyouya said briskly. “Let’s go.”
As everyone walked towards the field, Kaoru looked at their backs silently. Honey was sitting on top of Mori’s shoulders, chattering happily. Tamaki was discussing something with Kyouya. And Hikaru…. Hikaru was talking with Haruhi.
‘So where do I stay?’ Kaoru thought to himself. ‘They… they all have their own worlds. Where do I go if my world with Hikaru world no longer exists?’
Because who I am and who I'll be
Kaoru watched, smiling slightly as Honey pouted.
“Honey–senpai, you know it’s only fair,” Tamaki tried to tell the senior.
“But I don’t want Takashi to be the ‘it’ in this game,” Honey protested. He hugged his bunny closer. “I don’t want it!”
“Mitsukuni….” Came Mori’s warning tone.
“Let’s begin,” Kyouya said, walking away. Everyone else started to run around, trying to find the best hiding place. Everyone except Honey. The senior stayed where he was. Kaoru stopped running and looked back to see Honey looking at Mori. Kaoru smiled. He jogged towards them.
“Honey–senpai,” Kaoru said, gently, “why don’t we go hide?”
“But I don’t want to!” Honey pouted. “I don’t want to be the ‘it.’”
“That’s why we have to hide,” Kaoru said.
“B – but Takashi always finds me,” Honey argued, shaking his head as he refused to move.
“Um….” Kaoru thought for a while. “Well, then I’ll hide with you.”
“Eh? Why?”
“That way,” Kaoru smiled, eyes closing in the process, “you can hide behind me when Mori–senpai finds us so that you won’t be ‘it’ at all.”
“But then, Kao–chan,” Hone said, “you’ll be ‘it’”
“It’s fine,” Kaoru said. “Now, shall we go hide?”
Honey looked at Mori.
“I’ll find the others first,” Mori said, as if to comfort the smaller boy.
Honey smiled.
“Arigatou, Takashi!” Honey grabbed Kaoru’s hand. “Ah, Kao–chan! We have to hide fast! Let’s go to the most hidden place ever! Then, we can go back to the music room and eat cake after our game!”
Kaoru nearly tripped over himself as the senior pulled him towards the maze.
Mori started counting.
Is locked inside, inside of me
Kaoru was walking around the maze when he noticed that Honey had dropped behind. Kaoru turned to face the senior.
“Honey–senpai?” Kaoru looked at the senior questioningly.
“Kao–chan,” Honey started, “daijoubu?”
Confusion filled Kaoru’s mind. Why was Honey–senpai asking him if he were all right? Did something happen?
“Aa,” Kaoru frowned slightly. “Is something wrong, Honey–senpai?”
Honey’s eyes suddenly became watery. Tears started to fall down the senior’s cheeks.
“Ah!” Kaoru quickly tried to stop the boy from crying. “Honey–senpai! You don’t need to cry! Uh, what’s wrong? Are you hurt somewhere?”
Honey just shook his head.
“Gomen ne,” Honey cried. “Gomen ne, Kao–chan.”
“But…” Kaoru looked troubled, “why? Why are you sorry? You didn’t do anything.”
Honey just shook his head. He bawled, hugging Kaoru tightly.
“I – I don’t understand, Honey–senpai,” Kaoru said, “but maybe you should stop crying. Come on, it can’t be that bad. Besides,” Kaoru tried to lighten the mood, “Mori–senpai will kill me if he sees you crying.”
“Don’t you understand?” a cold voice came from behind Kaoru.
Kaoru turned to see Kyouya.
“Kyouya–senpai?” Kaoru looked at the other, confused.
Mori came up from behind Kyouya. Kaoru felt his heart skip a beat.
“Ah!” Kaoru stammered. “Mori–senpai, he just started – I – I’m not sure why he’s crying.”
Mori didn’t say anything. He walked towards them. Kaoru braced himself, swallowing hard and hoping he’d live through whatever torture he may soon experience for making Honey cry even though he had no idea as to why the senior was crying.
Wait! What did Kyouya mean by….
“What don’t I understand, senpai?” Kaoru asked Kyouya.
Kyouya looked at Kaoru calculatingly before turning away.
“Let’s go,” Kyouya just said. “It’s best we find the others since it’s getting late.”
Kaoru wasn’t sure if he was missing something.
“Mitsukuni,” Mori uttered.
Honey pulled away from Kaoru, sniffing and wiping his tears with his sleeve. He then went to his usual place atop Mori’s shoulders.
“Let’s go,” Kyouya said as he waited for them.
They all went to continue searching for the remaining members.
It was when they were all heading back to the clubroom that Kaoru finally understood what had prompted Honey to cry.
“He’s crying,” Mori–senpai had murmured, in a whisper that only Kaoru could hear, “for you. Because you refuse to cry, he’s crying for you.”
TBC
A friend of mine wrote a fic and since he doesn't have an account here, he asked me if i could post this for him. This story is also available in fanfiction.
Title: Change of Heart (1/2)
Summary: "If I did the right thing.... then why does it hurt?"
Warnings: Angst
Word Count: 3186
Notes: This can be sad.... as what a classmate of mine had said. So just a warning in case you cry easily. And this is a Kaoru-centric fic though it's about the two of them. May be seen as shounen-ai but is actually just about the twins.
“Why?”
Kakashi turned to the dark-haired boy.
“Why not?” Kakashi countered.
“Why did you do it?” Sasuke asked again. “Why didn’t you let them punish me?”
“You want the punishment?” Kakashi asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Yes!” Sasuke burst out. “I mean, no! But I deserved it. So why didn’t you let them punish me?”
Kakashi didn’t answer. Instead, he took the boiling pot from the stove and placed it aside. He started to prepare their meal.
Sasuke fumed, knowing that his former sensei would only speak when he wants to. He stormed out of the kitchen only to flop down the sofa and watch TV.
Kakashi followed the boy’s retreat with his eyes.
Sasuke had just recently returned to the village. It was only after the village won the war against Orochimaru and his army. Sasuke was, to the villagers’ surprise, the one who killed the snake. Apparently, the teen left the village to be strong and kill his brother, not destroy his home.
Needless to say, almost everyone was shocked that the teen, who refused to return even when almost every team had been sent to bring the him back years ago, voluntarily returned to the village and was even willing to accept punishment for his deeds. To the teen’s surprise though, no punishment was waiting for him. Only an agreement that he was to stay with Kakashi for a whole year before he was allowed to live on his own again.
“You have to go see Tsunade later this afternoon,” Kakashi reminded as he set Sasuke’s meal in front of the teen.
Sasuke took the plate and ate, not saying a word.
At first, he thought everything was already settled during the first meeting. Apparently, there was more.
Sasuke suddenly gagged.
“Change my mind,” he sputtered. “Living with you IS a punishment. Don’t you know how to cook?”
“Hm?” Kakashi took a spoonful of food and chewed silently. Then, he swallowed without a comment.
“I guess I placed too much salt,” he commented nonchalantly.
“You guessed?” Sasuke said sarcastically. “What kind of ninja doesn’t know how to cook anyhow?”
“It was never part of the code,” Kakashi placed the plate down, not finishing his food.
Sasuke just turned away and struggled to finish the food since he didn’t know how to reply to that last statement. Kakashi, on the other hand, just looked at TV, not really watching the show. The only sound in the apartment was that coming from the TV. Other than that, the two occupants were silent.
“You never should have spoken for me, you know,” Sasuke suddenly said, breaking the silence. “I was prepared for my punishment.”
Kakashi’s eyes softened but Sasuke didn’t notice since his attention was at the TV screen.
“You’re my student,” Kakashi said simply.
“I ran away,” Sasuke reminded.
Instead of answering, Kakashi just finished the food he set aside and stood up.
“We have to go.”
*****
Sasuke stood still as he listened to the present Hokage.
“You are still allowed to have missions. However, you will only be working with Kakashi,” Tsunade finished.
Sasuke nodded again.
Considering Sasuke’s rank, Kakashi will have to suffer doing C-rank or D-rank missions. If not, maybe a B-rank mission. It will be dull for a jounin who had his share of S-rank missions. Sometimes, Sasuke wondered if Kakashi was the one being punished instead of him.
“All right. You are dismissed,” Tsunade placed some papers aside.
Sasuke turned to leave.
However, before he reached the door, Tsunade called to him.
“Oi, brat,” Tsunade called.
Sasuke stopped, his hand on the doorknob. He didn’t turn around but Tusnade knew that he was listening.
“It’s good to have you back,” Tsunade said softly. “Your friends never stopped looking for you.”
Sasuke just looked down, thinking. Then, he turned his head a bit to the Hokage’s direction.
“It’s good to be back, Hokage-sama,” Sasuke said, before opening the door and leaving.
*****
Sasuke was walking towards Kakashi’s apartment when he saw Iruka.
“Iruka-sensei,” Sasuke nodded to acknowledge his former teacher.
“Hello, Sasuke,” Iruka smiled. “Would you like to join me for some ramen?”
Would you like to talk?
“Hn,”
Sasuke followed Iruka to Ichiraku’s. When they arrived, Iruka ordered two ramen noodles and soon, the two were eating in silence before Iruka spoke up.
“Naruto and Sakura never gave up on you, you know,” Iruka said.
Sasuke looked at his bowl of noodles.
‘This was Naruto’s favourite,’ he remembered. He remembered being so annoyed with the blonde. To top it all, the blonde’s stupidity was obvious even at the start when he introduced himself when they first met Kakashi. A whole life revolving around ramen and being a Hokage…. Naruto was always picking fights with him. Annoyed as Sasuke was with the dobe, he helped the blonde simply because the blonde was his rival… and his best friend.
As for Sakura…. Sasuke was annoyed with the fact that the girl had, like the other girls, a seemingly obsessive crush on him. Other than that, Sasuke had to respect the girl. She was a smart ninja. She was also his teammate. Her obsessive infatuation may have changed and now, she was just as precious a friend as Naruto was to Sasuke.
“I know,” Sasuke said softly. “That dobe….”
“He told me something before he left to train with Jiraiya-sama,” Iruka said. “He told me that Jiraiya-sama told him to give up on you. You were like Orochimaru.”
At this, Sasuke’s hand tightened on the chopsticks but he didn’t say anything.
“Naruto didn’t do what Jiraiya-sama expected though,” Iruka continued. “Instead of training so that Naruto would be strong enough to fight Akatsuki, Naruto decided to train so that he’ll be strong enough to bring you home. He never stopped trying to find you till he lost in an agreement with Hokage-sama and had to stop as promised. But he still planned to pursue you, along with Sakura. Sakura’s gotten stronger, too. If anything, I think they wanted you back with them. Team 7. The two trained hard for that. They trained with another teacher. Sakura went to the Hokage while Jiraiya-sama trained Naruto.”
“What about Kakashi-sensei?” Sasuke asked suddenly.
“I guess you can say that he lost his team,” Iruka said, smiling sadly. “Or, you can say that his team was old enough to not need a jounin watching over them.”
Sasuke looked at Iruka.
“He’s probably the right teacher for you, Sasuke,” Iruka said, looking at the teen. “Kakashi-sensei may probably be the only one who can understand you most. He grew up losing those he loved because of the war. He was very much an orphan like you.”
Sasuke turned away, a strange feeling overwhelming his senses…. Guilt, sadness….
“… and I guess that’s why he was the first to speak for you,” Iruka said. “When you returned, most of us teachers, together with the elders, were called together to decide what to do with you. It was inevitable that you should be punished, whether we liked it or not. But Kakashi-sensei spoke for you. He offered to take you in and watch over you. He assured the elders of your loyalty and reminded them that you had killed Orochimaru when he tried to attack Konoha. You know what, Sasuke? Naruto and Sakura and your other friends barged into the meeting, uninvited and backed Kakashi-sensei up. In the end, it was all of us against the elders, with Tsunade-sama in the middle. Then, the decision was made due to the fact that Tsunade sided with Kakashi-sensei regarding your loyalty. No one expected that since she seemed to not like you. Most of those you think hate you actually defended you simply because you are their friend.”
“Still,” Sasuke started, “Kakashi-sensei never should have offered to take me in. Now he has to do those low-ranked missions with me.”
“You think he didn’t think of that beforehand?” Iruka asked.
Sasuke didn’t answer. Iruka smiled.
“You know, at first, I found it funny,” Iruka said. “Your team was exactly like Jiraiya-sama’s team before. Funny thing was, all of you in your team split up and studied under every member of that team. Naruto with Jiraiya-sama, Sakura with Tsunade-sama… and you sought Orochimaru. That was one reason Jiraiya-sama was convinced that you wouldn’t return. He claimed that you were very much like Orochimaru. I think, if it weren’t for the fact that Jiraiya was one of the legendary sannin or perhaps, if Kakashi-sensei isn’t known for holding back, Kakashi-sensei would have attacked him for putting you down almost all the time. Of course, that fact never stopped Naruto or Sakura from hitting the sannin. All the same, Kakashi-sensei wasn’t pleased with that.”
Sasuke stayed silent. Kakashi-sensei…. Sasuke knew Naruto and Sakura would defend him simply because he knew them and from the way things were before, it was no different. But to have his sensei defend him…. Sasuke was surprised.
“Gai-sensei defended you, too,” Iruka added, smiling as he noticed a twitching eyebrow.
He was being defended by that strange teacher? Sasuke’s eyebrow twitched at that thought.
“He said that you reminded him more of Kakashi-sensei especially when Kakashi-sensei was younger,” Iruka said. “Apparently, both of you were the same.”
“I still don’t get it,” Sasuke said finally. “Despite all that, they… you all never should have done what you did.”
“Why not?” Iruka asked. “Naruto and the others consider you as their friend. The other teachers and I think of you as our student. You were once our student after all. Plus, we still think of you as our fellow neighbor. And Kakashi-sensei still thought of you all as his students.”
Not knowing what to say, Sasuke just finished his ramen. Iruka ahd already finished. Before Sasuke could do anything, Iruka paid for the two bowls of ramen.
“Think of it as a welcoming gift,” Iruka said.
They started to walk towards their destination. On the way, they met Kakashi.
“Yo!” Kakashi greeted, his visible eye forming a happy arc.
“Hello, Kakashi,” Iruka smiled.
“Hn,” Sasuke just looked at his sensei.
“Sasuke, we have to shop for food or we won’t have dinner so can you go ahead?” Kakashi grinned. “I have to speak with Iruka-sensei for a while.”
Sasuke just walked towards the grocery store. Kakashi and Iruka watched him go.
“Ah, Iruka-sensei,” Kakashi said as he watched Sasuke’s retreating form. “I understand why you reacted the way you did back then, before the chuunin exams.”
Iruka looked at the jounin in surprise before smiling. It was close to an apology that Kakashi could make.
“He’s going to be okay,” Iruka said. “Everything will be the same again someday.”
“Perhaps. Well,” Kakashi grinned, his hands in his pockets. “I should get going now. Bye!”
Before Iruka could say anything, the jounin disappeared in a puff of smoke.
Iruka smiled.
It won’t take long.
*****
Kakashi appeared in a puff of smoke just as Sasuke was walking towards Kakashi’s apartment.
“You’re late!” Sasuke said dryly, carrying grocery bags.
“Eh? Don’t say that,” Kakashi grinned.
“You said ‘we had to shop for food.’ In the end, I’m the only one doing so,” Sasuke said accusingly. “You’re not going to complain about what I bought.”
“Not if you cook,” Kakashi grinned as his student threw him a dirty look.
“Che!” Sasuke muttered. “I still think staying with you is enough punishment.”
“It’s only for a year!” Kakashi reminded. Inside, he was feeling a bit sad.
Only a year and then, he’ll be alone again.
“You never gave up on me.”
It was more of a statement than it was a question.
“You were my student,” Kakashi shrugged. "That never changed."
“I failed you.”
“No, if anything, I failed as a teacher. I failed to teach you enough to keep you here. If I had been better, you wouldn’t even bother giving Orochimaru’s offer a second thought even if you would be reminded of it everyday.”
Silence. Then,
“You were a great teacher.”
Kakashi started. Then, he grinned.
“You’d be the first to say that.”
“Will… will you train me again?” came a soft request.
“You defeated Orochimaru. What more can I teach you?” Kakashi asked.
“I defeated him with help from everyone,” Sasuke corrected. “So, will you still train me?”
“Well,” Kakashi considered it. “You still are my student, after all. That never changed. Training will start at five am tomorrow.”
Sasuke smiled inwardly.
When they reached Kakashi’s apartment, Kakashi took some vegetables from the grocery bags and headed towards the kitchen. Sasuke got the remaining food to store them in the refrigerator.
During the night, the two watched TV while eating. Sasuke was the first to break the silent.
“Kakashi-sensei,” Sasuke began. “Can I stay?”
So that I won’t have to be alone anymore? So that I will know that I haven’t disappointed you completely.
“Well, you are here, aren’t you?”
Why not? That way, we’ll have each other. Always….
You were my student…. That never changed….
Author's Notes: This is my first attempt at Naruto fanfiction though this isn't the first idea that came to mind. Just the first I finished. Anyway, please drop a comment to help me improve.
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